11 3 / 2012
I’ve had a lot of shitty people in my life…
Sometimes I wonder why I even let these type of people into my life. You know, the type of people that go out of their way to hurt you, they don’t care about anything you have to say or do and the worst thing they do is use you. I’ve had people steal from me, use me, hurt me, backstab me and I’ve always forgiven them. I’ve always went out of my way for my friends. I’ve always been that girl that does everything for everyone. When my friends are sick, I bring them soup. When my friends are a few dollars short, I lend them the money. When my friends are going through heartbreak, I drop whatever I am doing to be by their side. I don’t know why but I feel like I’m the only person that is like this. When my boyfriend and I broke up people didn’t even seem to care. I called one of my ‘friends’ at the time hysterically bawling my eyes out because I had just gotten my heart broken and she told me she would come over if her boyfriend got called in for work…like what? I felt like shit and on top of that my ‘friend’ didn’t seem to give a f*ck. I kept wondering why God kept punishing me. What did I do so bad? I sat on the edge of my bed, crying even harder than I was before because not only did I just break my own heart (I split up with him), my friend didn’t even care. Its always been hard for me when people come bowing beneath me, begging for forgivness, for me not to forgive them. I realized that people do make mistakes but theres people that deserve forgiveness and ones that don’t. The stupid petty fights that friends get into deserve the forgiveness but when you have been there for someone through everything and they screw you over like no other that doesn’t deserve the forgiveness. Surrounding yourself with people that support you, care about you and would do anything for you helps every aspect of your life.
17 2 / 2012
If you knew….
If you knew exactly how much you hurt me I don’t think you could live with yourself. I wish I could make you feel the way I feel everyday just for one day. Maybe you wouldn’t continue to hurt me over and over again but you most likely would…wouldn’t you? I think you like the thought that I’d do anything for you and you get to sit back and laugh. I still wonder though why it doesn’t hurt you as much as it does me. I know the answer though. It’s because you never loved me…
31 1 / 2012
What is beauty?
My idea of beauty will most likely differ from yours. How can a society of people with all different opinions define what beautiful is. We’re all different so why do we have one deffiniton of beauty? You ask people on the streets what beauty is and they will tell you tall, blonde, skinny and tan. Of course this varies but this is what you see in magazines and on the television. I disagree. I think beauty comes from the inside. We all have our own definition. I think beautiful is always having a smile on your face, having confidence and feeling good about yourself. What do you think is beautiful? Beauty is perception. How do you perceive yourself? Is your beautiful just looking good or is it feeling good too?
24 1 / 2012
Advice for my former teenage self:
- It’s a waste of your time to worry about what people think of you. There will always be haters, and it’s rarely about you and even more rarely your problem. Let them hate.
- We create our own realities; you can do absolutely anything you want to. Define success for yourself, make your own…
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24 1 / 2012
I've seen so many people getting hated on today.
Truthfully, there will occasionally be people who have legitimate issues with you over how your behavior/attitude affects them. You should, at least, honestly examine what they’re saying.
But, when people throw venom at you for things that in no way personally affect them, ignore them. Don’t…
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24 1 / 2012
"One day someone special will walk into my life and fill that hole in my heart. I will cherish him more than I ever did you because he’s not making that hole, he’s filling it in."
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